Another Year At Talent Selexion 

Ah. I completed another year at Talent Selexion. After all the drama I am still here hahaha. Now this is what I call ‘blessing in disguise’. Everytime I turn into Singham and say ‘ata majhi satakali’ there’s always something that holds me back in Talent Selexio xoon 🙂 

After my Christmas vacation when I resumed duty, everything was the same. Work went smoothly as usual. There was peace in the office and my views about my Boss was the same, he is Gabbar. The day came when I completed a year at Talent Selexion. We had an appraisal procedure. My Boss offered me a salary hike, also promoted me to a Sr. Consultant. However, before this we had a meeting, where we discussed about my annual performance, my strengths, and my weaknesses. It was a lengthy conversation, where I put my views across and Sir in turn put his views across. After that conversation my views about my Boss changed. I never went to him and spoke if I came across any difficulty in any of my assignments but after this conversation I became very comfortable talking to him. I went to him without hesitation whenever required. 

Workwise everything went smoothly. There came a period when I got attracted to someone. We all go through this phase at some point of time but in my case I didn’t know how to react to the situation. I was unable to get over this to the extent that it even affected my performance at work. As my performance was going down, my Boss again turned into Gabbar. He put pressure on me to perform, however I just couldn’t concentrate. So finally I decided I need a break. I wrote to my Boss that I desperately need a break. After reading my mail my Boss immediately understood there was something seriously wrong and he gave me that break and told me come back once you feel ready to work. Sir never really shouted at me for low performance but that time our business was going through a tough time so may be that made him aggressive, however Sir did not tell me anything because he knew I was already quiet disturbed. 

That whole week I spent with my Mom. We went shopping, went for walks, ate lots of ice creams, spoke to my friends and also went for a nice new haircut. All this helped me get over my confusions and in the mean while I decided to take a bold step. I went and confessed to that person about my feelings. Everything was sorted. Surprisingly that person was very understanding. Now we share a different kind of a relation and I pray our beautiful relation last forever. 🙂 

Anyways coming back to Talent Selexion, after the break I was all ready to work and I did. I performed well. However professionally it was a bad phase for our organization. We slowly started loosing clients, closures were few, candidates were dropping. Stress levels were going up. Sir started shouting at me for every little bit. He never had anything personal against me but it was just the business stress that came out. I being an employee felt the pain of our organization shutting down, i can understand what my Boss must have gone through. It’s not easy to see your dreams shatter in front of you. 
My Boss has always been very supportive. He is not like other Bosses who gives you assignments and sit on your head for CV’s. He gives us the assignment and makes sure we understand every aspect of the requirement. He helps us whenever we get stuck in any of the assignments.  Since Talent Selexion was always there for me even I want to be there for Talent Selexion.
 
Our office shut down we started working from home. Now every minute the stress level was increasing. Since Sir couldn’t see me working and he had his own problems to deal with, he started putting pressure on me. He started imposing his ways on me. Unfortunately I was unable to adapt the new procedures. I started falling ill often and Sir thought since I am working from home I am not working seriously. It was not anyone’s fault just the time was bad. I wanted to be in Talent Selexion to help in building it again however I failed in giving my best. Misunderstandings were so much that Sir asked me to leave. I was so upset. I started applying for other jobs but again my heart was stuck in Talent Selexion. I went back to Sir and told him I want to continue working. Sir gave me a chance. 

My luck was so bad at that time that inspite of all my efforts I was unable to perform well. Everyday Sir got upset on me, meaningless arguments, made things worse. I decided to resign. I resigned. I was not happy with this decision but sometimes we need to make difficult choices. I did not apply for any other job as well because I was not ready for it.
 
After a week Sir called me. He offered me to work with him as a freelancer. Somewhere it was like a dream come true. I just wanted to be a part of Talent Selexion. It really doesn’t matter whether i am working as a freelancer or a full time employee as long as I am a part of the organization. I accepted the offer without thinking much. Now once again Sir gave me the freedom to work the way I am comfortable and touchwood my performance too is back on track. 

Due to some personal reasons I had decided to take up another job. I went for one interview and also got selected. The best part of the interview was when I was asked about my company. A different level of pride for Talent Selexion came in my attitude when I spoke about it. This itself held me back. Inspite of having a very good offer I didn’t take it up because there can not be anything better than my Talent Selexion. 

I belong here just here no where else I want to go. 🙂